the roots of pain that were embedded in my has start to progress.getting back on its tracks. does it mean my efforts to stir clear of such events and feelings are down to the drain. it really seems like a dream, maybe more like a illusion. its as if i have done nothing. am i going to revert back to the demon?
is the flame inside me going out? tons of questions are bombarding my mind.my peaceful world is swirling. the image is cracking. i spread my wings. i cant fly, the weight on the tip are too overwhelming.
im losing my faith. myself.
but i refused.NEVER will i lose my grip on myself.i hope that i can hold out.
how i wish.someone.will be there for me.
i know im fading.maybe one day i will wilt and be carried by the winds of the north.but there are many things i want to fulfil, people i want to protect.god bless me.im feeling totally fucked.totally helpless.totally breathless.no one word can describle my feelings i guess.its a mixed.knnpccb.i jus wanna scream.ARRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!
dammit.
pcb.no mood to blog liao.
f**k!!
