lol.yea, i agree that irc are full of shit. so far i have seen, not much of nice people around. people who are stucked up and are warped in the personal logics. on the bright side i have met some nice peeps in there =] namely lisaa, joan, saddist, mich ,sha sha, xcreax. thats about it i guess. maybe 1 or 2 more nicks that leaked out of my mind. i have been in irc on and off for like 9 years? or maybe 1 or 2 years short. to be frank, i did not change much till after my secondary sch end. i look back at my past, its so horrid that i cant believed i survived it. and those actions i have done, yes it was me. somehow i feel like "what the fuck was i thinking at that that time?" , "damn, i was sucky." i knew i reacted to the situation. i was trying to minimise my pain i guess but in the attempt i deepen stuff.
all these gradually accumulate up forming to my crappy past. how i wish i could turn back time but i simply cant. i simply have to live my life trying to bury my past. i tried to be a better man, perhaps i succeeded perhaps i did not. i'd never know. my life is slowly fitting into the image i have painted. as strong i can be, as generous i can be. i look normal, or even brave by taking things in my stride. dammit, im human too. it WILL affect me. each time a scar in the sands of time resurface, i sink deeper into my pool of agony.
those who act oh so good or whatever. u bitch behind people's back doing what people what u dont want to do on u.FUG off bitches.for u do not have the ability to conjure up to see beyond peoples past and get in touch with their true soul.just sew up your rosy lips =] if you cant believe what people can do, dont say they are lying or boasting cos u may nv know yea? well of cos, lets so say when its pretty obvious. well, everyone should be given the benefit of doubt.learn. and one thing, how can people believe rumors? lol.i wonder.
*add on* im officially quitting IRC.cheers =]
no use pin pointing fingers, particularly listing out the name. i dont want to. pointless i'd say. but i frankly think that the person is either RETARDED or have some serious mental blocks.lol. i have a barrage of thoughts to list on, esp my rantings. lol.shall spare my dear peeps the agony eh? ^^
well well well.finished my SBS PAPER! yay. =] leaving me with televsion and radio production & techniques of pro. writing and speaking. hohoho.so much to study. i realised i fcuked my life so bad.lmao.to glued to my anime, vcds and guildwars. time to take a step back and get my life in order. i have stopped reading, argg, time to get back to it. only when i have many problems in spelling, i realise my english is having some rather serious problems. time to dig the dictionary more often! and re-read my old books to substain my level of english. looking at my fellow peeps, i lagging behind BIG TIME. =( i have wasted months doing non productive items.i decided to lead a more fulfilling life i guess. =]
well here are some pics.enjoy.*edited* shall add later i guess.blogger is giving me some silly problems =(since i cant have pics, i decided to blabber a lil more =]
went to visit my maternal grandparents.my mom was worried so i went down to have a look how are stuff 1st as my dearest mummy has to head back to office to finish up her work.went down to hg, they were pretty alright i guess, cant really see that they were sick.i pity them, having nothing to do but watch tv. i feel guilty, so i will make more trips down to accompany them if i can =]
my bro and mom is back per normal after the hugh episode, i feel extremely elated bout it =)
i hope i will be able to lighten and brighten people's life around me =) and boy, do i wish to see them smile with a glint when their times is up. to see one life form journey end with wishes fulfilled is something so beautiful. i wonder has my anguish simmered or is it yet repressed in me. lol. i wonder when can i reach the pit of my abyss. perhaps more knowledge would empower me to progress and advance further. anyone got books on emotional intel?!
btw, im looking for songs by third eye blind! and this song on my blog ghost of you and me - bbmak.anyone can help me find? pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. ^^
okay, my stomach is kicking up a fuss. have to babysit it now, lol.so i will be entertaining my stomach in a jiffy. anyone who reads my blog pls tag! ^^.well, i will bum back here in due time i suppose, so... tata my folks!
