WOOOO.there will be approx maybe 3-5 update parts i gonna do? heh.DAMN, so much to update, i swear. just look at whats happening recently. ;D
Part 1
im transforming. the ideal guy thats i have been kinda projecting sub-consciously in my mind? i dont know but one things im god damn sure. im becoming better. i just know. maybe i may be bhb to what ppl might comment. HECK. i dont give a damn, cos its not like their comments have some magical adverse effects.
was a super filial boy can? i COOK for my mom tonight.woooo ;D steamboat.had to buy stuff and make the broth.black pepper chicken, sambal kangkong. HOLY SHYT. it was such a spread but seems so sinful as there was only me and my mother to wolf it down. i must say i improved but crap. i forgot to take a snap SHOT. =( well.my tummy has complaining as it wants to slim down? =p
yea, had started my exercising regime. my muscle is still kinda sore from my intensive workout 2 days ago, so i went swimming yst. yes, protein powder smells like milk! but
dang. its tasteless, its like some sewage water when i down it. YUCK. but man, no shit bout' me getting my dream bod. whatever it takes i suppose. bought a tanning lotion today ;D and i realised im really too gayishly fair lah. so maybe i would look good tanned. just for a tryout x)) how im able to conjure enuff determination to do it.
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side tracking abit. after swimming yst, when me and kelvin just decided to head to westmall to grab some drinks after our swim. but we met a pretty old lady, bout 50+? i suppose. she asked for our help to help her pull her trolley that is filled with 1 box and 1 plastic bag of books. of cos, thinking it was still early to head home or westmall, we agreed. i tried pulling 1st, fuck. it was so uber painful, the handle was like some sharp end of a table that constantly injects the burning tinge into my palm, my fren and i decided to rotate pulling the 30kg load of books. till i got so paranoid and decided to carry the plastic bag whilst my my fren pull the trolly with the box. we walked a certain distance (MUCH more than what she told us). lol. so we dragged ourselves to the place that she wannt unload them and get some cash. when i reached and see what happened(its a norm to them) but i went OMFGWTFFTW. 30kg and she got $3 for it. she offered to buy us a drink. we rejected. i was like WTF? a speckle of tear formed on my eye. its hard life man. so much work they do just for that pansy amount.that was a reality slap. i really empathise her. i gave all i had, bout 7+ and left. she felt bad bout' it but i left a happy man. i got pics on it. shes so dark can, prolly more tann than i can ever get in my life.
after it i and kelvin detoured and headed to westmall. i drew $$$$ and went for a drink, i was sweating buckets. damn the killer weather, luckily i din get a stroke. kelvin told me some pretty jacked up warped theory while reminded me of ZAFT chairman. it sounded so righteous and logical when u hear em'. "those who want to be pitied shouldnt be pitied. (this i agree la) Those dont want to be pitied, respect them and not pity lo" i was like hmmmmmmmmmm. but crap. it depends case to case la. and damn, u dont have to pity them can? know whats empathy? or u just wanna help out? make the world a better place? shit balls.pffft
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im definitely recharged and motivated to try out so many things. HEH. i learned so many stuff. well, guessed what, had a HEART TO HEART talk with my dad. hell yea. it was like *pinches myself, a DREAM? for some reason it happened, dont ask me how. i got no friggin idea. but i was elated that i was able to express myself for the first time to him. it buttered me up with the infomation and yes, i had a dream come through *that i shall not reveal* lol. im more determine to enforce his business, i wouldnt let him fold up his salon and switch to driving taxi. i decided to go read up and look for my lecturers ( to ask advice lo ), before i start to market his salon. yes yes, i need u guys to help to ^^ shall tell ya next time.
sadly just now he said some stuff that just null the effects of what he said yst but HECK. i have the special ability to filter stuff, well. heh. its alright, im still very enthu and motivated!ahhh.shit, memory runs. guess i will continue part later or tml morning ;D
peace out.
