Alone i shall struggle on..

Sunday, December 04, 2005

random thoughts is running through. slowed and fastworded in motion.i lead a charmed jinx life. amazingly, im alive so i can be tormented mortally i suppose.

i never changed. you thought i had. your thoughts flashed, gaining easy entry. overwriting those memories and traces of me being erased due to some simple assumptions conjured at the back of your brain. i really got no comments. i dont even want to make snide remarks or whatever to put myself in the favourable lights or to delude myself that its okay. i never change, perhaps i had; in due words - matured. the only changed i got was to stop evading life. that was it and i dont see it adversly affect anyone as deep inside i knew i havent showed it to anyone.

i agreed i tried to "socialise", it looked like i succeeded. but i failed miserably. whos knows about it? me. and now, im even more reluctant to open up to anyone. upped my barrier. extremely anti-social. i know im no superman. everyone knows. i wearing a clay mask, i need to mantain it now and then. to form that smooth surface. whenever turmoils sets in, i need days to nurse the cracks on the mask. everyone needs. no? but i know i need.

"yes i've changed cos i dont know where our friendship stands". WOW. biggest jolt of my time. certainly. i wouldnt want to carry on as tears are brimming my eyes. i dont cry. i wont.

Panda. i wont contact u anymore. im sorry. the day u grace yourself with the answer of where our friendship stand, look me up.till then. i'll be by the shadows.

grey areas in life.
its everywhere.
theres no hiding.
so here i am.

question of the day:: can anyone tell me, what are friendships? what are friends.

mr`slackalicious :o
4:10 PM

I am u nder control

skin deep.

Name: mr enigma
School: MDIS, Mass Comm Dip
Birthdate: 17 Nov 1987
StarSign:Scorpio
Hobbies: Im a Gaming Whore
Qoute Of The Day: Do you sure you fucking understand your emotions? reconsider my friend. Take your time and sort it out.
Likes: GIRLS, eating, SLEEPING, teevee, Radio, MUSICCC, movies! People who will chill with me by the beach~
Dislikes: Peanuts, Greens, Sore LOSERS, Jazz, Morbid dreams. extreme ends of me clashing.

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