yawn. life ahead for the oncoming week will be rather hectic.sian, gotta be so damn exhuasted. damn, have to stop exercising to rush up my projects i guess, my body gonna plummet again. sigh.
"love does not come to those who dont take action" this simple quote from a retarded serial seem pretty true as i might say. as yes, it will definitely apply to me i suppose.
tons of thoughts randomly wandering in the deep recess of my heart, my soul... my mind. alot of things are waiting to be done, i dont know where to start, or maybe, whether to start anot. im not oblige, but it concerns how i am going to live in my future. am i able to conjure up enough courage and will power to brave through all odds? i wonder if my iq can match mere mortals, im hoping im a prodigy.
since young i had a thing for maths and english. i breeze through my years. till i started to screwed everything inside out. LOL, i got myself owned. and now im convinced that im just normal. i got a superb memory, extraordinary ability to absorb, but sigh, my logical side seem to plummet to pits. darn, im just getting retarded as the days go by. HELP. i need to diversify all aspects. never would i expect to kill so many aspects of me not continue-ing honing myself. sigh. sigh. i fallen so much behind.
i wasted 13 years and yes, slower by 13 years of ppl of my age. i will not be able to catch up i suppose, even if im able to attain that level, i'd be prolly 50+ years old? too late...too late.
F**K it. i dont wanna give it a damn. even if im deluding myself, i dont care! im a prodigy! MUAHAHA. wo shi tian cai! seeing myself lagged behind, it fuels me to propel even hastier and sturdier.
lol.disorganised thoughts, but its still wad remains in me. heh. sorry if its absurd.
